Love and Fascism
1999 - 2000
I am a derelict ghost tower
Full, with memory shadows
That flitter like the fluttering bats
Echoing, in my dank, empty sepulchral depths.
Once life and laughter
Burned inside my walls.
Now hopes, like years have past
To fade into the gloom that is strewn
By cobwebbed tears, around what might have been……
I called at your house today,
Your house where we had that first deep kiss
Where we loved, caressed and found elysian bliss.
Your house that reaches into my coloured dreams
Of red silver and gold, in which echoes of pain sweep,
With an aching current, from my own depths
To foam and crash in the most cataclysmic waves.
Only you don’t live there any more.
I’m years too late.
A noble ideal: that only the Aristos should rule,
A society Strong, Ordered: Hierarchical
The denial of freedom, criticism and exchange
Strangles life and narrows its range.
So that not the best but the stupid, the sycophantic
The docile, the unimaginative mediocrecracy
Such tones are the architecture of another world pure.
I wish you were here with me,
We could both share the rapture.
But you are not here.
That is why sleep has flown
And I’m awake here alone,
With the dawn chorus.
Love is a double-edged sword,
It can cut down the dead wood
To let the luscious light shine
That brings forth feelings warm and good,
It can break open barrels of intoxication fine.
Or it can slash and break,
Cut out your heart and leave an empty ache.
Love is a double-edged sword.
Today a decision was made,
And all restrictions allayed.
No more haunting by ghosts from the past,
No more being strangled by dreams iron cast.
Chained to a situation for so long,
Now free to laugh, dance and sing in life’s song.
Freedom in Rapture.
Rapture in Freedom.
I embrace the sky,
And you ask Why?
It is because it is like my life:
Rich, affirmative and happy. Reaching
To ward’s the horizon of unwritten future,
Different Weather as so many experiences
None of which I deny or regret,
But each and all, I love.
The Wheel Turns.
My spring emerged in the autumn,
When I awoke from a hibernating sleeping
To the final days of the summer sun,
With yellow wasps and mellow fruit seeping,
Leaves rusting beneath grey skies of revealing silence
Rotting fruit thru which the seeds of life commence.
My past history is autumn but I am the spring.
The spring we had together I toast with red wine
To affirm wholeheartedly, a time now past,
Now awake I see the particular and all: divine
This my harvest after my long summer fast.
I have recovered; I am the universe that affirms,
Being is becoming for the Wheel turns.
Eight and Nine.(August and September).
Between the last quarter of the eighth
And the hour of nine,
The dark descends enveloping all
For the nights are becoming in – drawn.
And the month of nine,
Being announces atrophy and Fall.
Autumn returns, again.
I simmered so long for you,
For your shoulders, breasts, neck
For your mouth and more,
Yet it was never requited.
Do pans of water simmer forever and more?
No, the energy sublates
From water into steam.
I no longer dream,
My feet are the soil,
My legs the becoming of being,
My loins the fertility of the wheel of life,
My heart is the vitality,
My shoulders the horizon,
My eyes are the sky,
And my Mind is the meaning of it all.